Today was exhausting.
We had 3 doctor’s appointments starting at 9 am and ending around 2 pm. Not to mention the hour of travel time each way.
We are still very much in the information gathering phase. It is like having to learn a new language. Even though we both understand a lot about cancer already, I’m realizing that each type of cancer has its own vocabulary.
As I sat and listened to the oncologist today and asked as many questions as we could think of, I felt numb once again.
It is not supposed to be like this. Having been down this road two times before with me in the hot seat, we never dreamed that we would be headed down this other fork in the road.
A Facebook post earlier today asked “What would I want to tell myself a year ago?”
That’s easy! Don’t let him wait to go to the doctor, and have them check EVERYTHING.
The why’s creep back in when you are sitting in the oncologists office listening to the statistics. And while I know that is all they are, the numbers are still scary. (But, I am beating the statistics, and he is just as stubborn as me).
So tonight when I came home and read my daily devotional (I usually do that earlier, but we had to be out of the house pretty early this morning), the words jumped off the page.
Entrust to Me everything that concerns you.
As hard as that is, I know in my heart that is all I can do.
We are blessed to have some of the most amazing people in our lives that anyone could ever ask for. Without having to ask, people already set up a care calendar to take care of daily needs. Just knowing that I didn’t have to come home to cook dinner tonight was a huge relief.
In the smallest of ways and in the largest of ways, God has taken care of our needs. In these types of situations we must humble ourselves, let friends and family help, knowing that God is the ultimate provider.
Today’s verse of inspiration is 1 Peter 5:6-7
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
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