I have been struggling lately with writing my story. If you follow along you may have noticed that my posts are sporadic.

While I was looking for inspiration (well, really just browsing Facebook), I came across a blog post aimed at writers and what can be learned from serious writers.

Item #6 (So What?) jumped out at me. It screamed at me actually, and I heard the little voice in my head…

It said “Yeah, Kim, so what? What about your story makes people want to come back for more?”

I have often asked myself will anyone care about the story, or will they just say “So what?”

For any newbies, my story is about my pilgrimage (pilgrimage: any long journey, especially one undertaken as a quest or purpose) along the Stage 4 Breast Cancer road.

And if I am going to call this a pilgrimage then I must ask myself “What is my purpose?”

Obviously, the main purpose is to continue living. But to what end? What is my purpose and am I conveying that purpose through the telling of my story?

I have definitely had my ups and downs. In fact, if I drew it out in map form, there would be hills (probably some mountains) and valleys, and even some level terrain (as level as it can be when you wake up every morning with the knowledge that you have stage 4 cancer).

Like most pilgrimages, my quest has been to seek God. More specifically, to seek a relationship with God that I portray daily by the way I live my life.

Thinking about my journey and looking back over the map I have mentally drawn, I am reminded of the Footprints in the Sand poem.

In finding and trusting my relationship with God, I observed the second set of footprints have many different sizes and the prints don’t look the same along the path. The various sized footprints are actually the prints left by friends and family that have walked with me (and sometimes carried me) on this pilgrimage and have acted as the hands and feet (literally and figuratively) of God.

So if you ask “So What?” I have missed the mark on sharing the grace and love that I have found in putting my trust in God during this journey.