Who are you Pretending to be?

Is it just me? Is your Twitter feed filled with Quotes?

I am amused by the number of quotes out there. My favorite is “The problem with quotes on the internet is that you can’t always verify their authenticity” – Abraham Lincoln.

That being said, one quote completely resonated with me this morning.

“We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be.” – Kurt Vonnegut

This month during the 31 day writing challenge I have been pretending to be a writer. More specifically a writer that speaks from faith.

I’m not saying that my faith is not real. It most certainly is very real and I wouldn’t be here today without it.

But as an outward appearance, for all on the internet to see and read, I am choosing to pretend that I am strong and relying on my faith to see us through this storm.

But in the middle of the night, when it is quiet and I am left to my own thoughts, the doubts creep in. I wonder if I am as strong and faithful as I am pretending to be.

This morning, after a night of restless sleep and doubts, Matthew 14:31 was tugging at my heart.

Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

So I will continue to pretend that my faith is strong and that I am strong. I will read Matthew 14:31 in the wee hours of the morning when doubt begins to creep in again and know that Jesus is reaching out his hand to me to catch me and remind me that even in the storm He is with me.

And one day, I won’t have to pretend any more and the doubts will fade away and be nothing but a feather blowing in the wind, drifting away.

Who or what are you pretending to be?