By January 2004 I had already had three chemo treatments and had five more to go. I was looking forward, not back. Chemo would be completed by sometime in April 2004 and we would move forward from there.

When you are a cancer patient (just like anything in life, really) you make a choice. Do I choose to move forward and continue the fight or do I  dwell in the ‘What if’s’ and dwell in the past. It is easy to dwell in the past and play the ‘what if’ game, but it is not productive. Maybe that is why people are always surprised with my attitude. Each morning I wake up I remind myself that I cannot change what happened yesterday I can only focus on today.

My treatment plan called for 4 treatments of Adraimycin/Cytoxan (A/C) and 4 treatments of Taxotere.  I had finished 3 treatments of the Red Devil as A/C is commonly referred to because of it’s bright red color.

I had my final A/C treatment in January with no complications. Whew. That is now behind me. What’s next?

As I have mentioned before each of hte treatment came about 3 weeks a part. This same schedule continued when I switched to Taxotere.

With no crazy adverse effects from the Taxotere (none that stand out in my mind at any rate), I was scheduled to finish my chemo treatments in April.

Thursday, April 8, 2004. Maundy Thursday or Holy Thursday. For those who may not know, that is the day the church recognizes the Last Supper. It is the Thursday before Good Friday and Easter.

I took this to be a good sign. It was my own personal Maundy Thursday. I had the Last Chemo and was looking forward to Monday where I would be celebrating new life.