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Category: My Story (Page 18 of 24)

Get up and Walk? Are you crazy?

Modern medicine still amazes me!  Here I was with a brand new rebuilt hip and the very next morning the physical therapist tells me it is time to get up and walk.  Just like that. Who did she think she was, Jesus? She might as well have said “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk” (John 5:8).

I looked at her like she was joking, the look she gave me said she wasn’t. Here I was less than 24 hours out of a major surgery and I’m wondering how in the world I’m supposed to get up and walk. I hadn’t been able to walk for the last 10 months.  It was a good thing for pain medications!

My first attempt to get up and walk I made it all the way to the bathroom door. All 5 steps. Wow. That was exhausting.

The next time I was able to get as far as the hospital room door. In other words, I added about 3 more steps.

The physical therapists kept coming back, it didn’t matter if it was the same one or not, they all made me get up and walk. Granted it was with a walker, and they were holding onto me. But those first steps were some of the most exhausting steps I’ve taken in my life.

Surgery was on Tuesday, and by Saturday the doctor was telling me it was time to go to rehab. I will tell you I was excited to get out of the hospital, but I was terrified of how much more they might expect of me at the rehab facility.

Sitting in a wheelchair after arriving at the Physical Therapy Rehab facility Sunday August, 8. 2011.

Sunday morning, it was time to head to rehab where they would teach me to walk again.

They transferred me via ambulance. Check that off the bucket list! Not sure that it was ever on my bucket list, and honestly it was the most painful ride ever. I think the driver managed to find EVERY single pot hole in San Antonio. There were not enough pain medications for that trip!

We finally arrived at my new home for the next few weeks. I was never so grateful to be out of a vehicle.

I guess the therapists at the new facility decided an ambulance ride through San Antonio was enough torture for one day. I met my nurses, got settled in my room and slept really well that night.

If you have never spent any time in a physical therapy rehab facility, let me just say I was significantly younger than 99% of the people staying there.

After being there for a few short days, it became obvious that many of the other patients were not happy about being there. When the nurses and nurses aides came to my room and looked worn out. My husband (J.R.) and I talked to them, asked them about their families, found out their stories. They became our family. I like to think they left my room feeling a little refreshed because we weren’t yelling at them. J.R. had brought a bag of silicone bracelets our church wore all summer they were red and said “God is Big Enough”), he gave one to each of the nurses/nurses aides that came in my room. Many of them wore the bracelet the entire time I was there.

I spent 10 days in the rehab facility, but the people I met there made a lasting impression on me. I hope we made a lasting impression on them.

Time to go HOME!

 

Do you Believe IN God or do you BELIEVE GOD?

Do you believe in God?

On the surface it seems like an easy question. As a Christian, we are called to be Believers.

When I am asked that question, my answer is Yes. I believe in God.

But the question that has been haunting me lately is not do I believe IN God, but do I BELIEVE GOD?

When you take out those two t{in}y letters the question becomes much more powerful.

There are countless people who believe IN God. But what does it look like to Believe God?

If you have followed and read any of my blog in the past, you know that emotionally 2016 was a tough year. As tough as it was, I never stopped believing IN God. I continued to pray, I asked others to pray and I sought strength with fellow believers. I would not have made it through the last year without some form of Belief.

As I reflect on what 2017 and beyond might look like, I find myself going beyond believing IN God, to Believing God.

Or to put it another way, Trusting God.

For the remainder of 2017 (and beyond), I am choosing every day to Believe God. I am seeking out his message to me. Yes, God speaks to us. Whether He speaks to us in dreams, through a sermon at church, through friends, or through other signs, He speaks to us every day.

If you don’t believe me, that is ok. But just open your eyes, your ears, and mostly your heart, to know God is speaking to you. You can believe Him when he says “I Love You.” There will be signs of his love in places you never imagined.

I have been a witness to God’s extraordinary love over and over. So many times I have lost count.

I have felt inadequate in expressing my thanks to friends and family, and even to God.

But He has never left my side. He has held my hands during the dark days, cried with me, celebrated with me, and continues to offer me Hope every morning as I continue on this new path.

Today I choose to Believe God. To Believe God can and WILL make something beautiful from the ashes of the past.

DO YOU BELIEVE GOD?

It’s 2017 and God has a Plan

jeremiah-29-11“For I know the plans I have for you…”
We have all read Jeremiah 29:11. Some of you probably don’t even have to look at the verse to know what it says.
We have used it to cling to when we face the unknown. Or when a child is graduating, it is used on half of the graduation cards. We like to think that we are here, and God has a plan, and his plan is for us to prosper. It is a great verse for looking forward to the future.
But how many of you, as Paul Harvey used to say “know the rest of the story?”
The verses leading up to 29:11 tell the story of the exile from Jerusalem and being sent to live in Babylon. The prophet Jeremiah is talking to the displaced Jewish community and telling them to make this place their new home.
This foreign, unfamiliar place should be considered home.
Have sons and daughters, he says. Jeremiah tells them….Do not decrease in size just because you are exiled, but instead take root in this new place. If this new place prospers, then you too will prosper.
Only after their lives have been completely uprooted and turned upside down does the prophet tell them that God has a plan.
THEN, he tells them that they too must take action for this plan to work. They must work to prosper in this new place.
Once they have toiled and worked in this new place they have been exiled in, THEN they can call on him and He will hear them.
Jeremiah 29:13 says ““You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
The year of 2016 was a rough year. I lost my father and my husband in the same week. I felt like the Jewish people being uprooted from their homes and given a new life. This was not the life that I expected, nor was it the life that Jeremiah 29:11 so lovingly promises – if that is the only part of the story you read.
Now the calendar has turned. The new year has come. I woke up on January 1, 2017 and realized that I am in my Babylon, and now it is time to prosper. It is time to seek God with all my heart. To trust that there is a plan, and to know that I too must be present, I must listen, I must trust, and I must act. Only then will God’s plan for me to prosper succeed.
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Happy Anniversay – A Bittersweet Day

Bittersweet.

I have used that word more in the last 7 months than I have in my previous 50 years.

24 Years ago today, I married my best friend. While that evokes so many wonderful memories, today I am sad to not be celebrating with him.

Since August I have been in the process of building a new house. Some people may think that was really fast. But I had some great friends and family supporting me in the decision. In fact, J.R. and I actually talked about me moving if something happened to him, he wanted me to move to be closer to friends and family and to be in a house that would be more suited to my needs.

If I needed any reassurance that J.R. was happy for me (because I am human, and as humans we seek reassurances in everything), I received these beautiful signs that my guardian angel is watching over me:

My Guardian Angel

Wednesday afternoon, as I walked up to the office for the closing, I looked down on the sidewalk and noticed a penny. A bright shiny heads up penny, right in front of me. Pennies from Heaven, right there on the path to my new home.

Thursday was moving day and utility installation day (because I can’t update my blog without a good internet connection). Thursday morning, the internet installer called me to give me a time frame for the installation. When I answered the phone he said, “Hi, this is J.R. I will be installing your internet today.” I will tell you I almost dropped the phone. After the initial shock, I will admit I was amused that the J.R. would be installing my technology, because if you knew my husband, you would know he was “technology challenged.”

When the movers showed up at the house, they introduced themselves: Jerrod, Mike and David. For those of you who don’t know the whole story, J.R. passed away in July, and his friend (and confidant during his last months) Mike passed away suddenly in September. Mike and his beautiful wife Pam were actually helped me find the house I decided to build.

I am always in awe of how God sends you signs or talks to you in ways you will understand.

This morning is one of those bittersweet moments. I am sitting in a new house, surrounded by pieces of the life we shared, but all I can think of is how much we would have enjoyed this house together (the bitter part). However, I know he had a hand in helping me get here (the sweet part).

Happy Anniversary to the love of my life. I know you are watching over me and loving me everyday. Today (as I do every day, just like you asked) I will find a reason to smile.  I Love You!

 

 

Please be patient with me

Hi all!

I hope you will be patient with me. I plan on getting back to the blog very soon. But exciting news..I’m building a house and will be moving in about 5 weeks.

So that means I am busy sorting and packing trying to get everything ready. Since my girls are both at college, it is quite the challenge. Thankfully, I have lots of great friends and family that are helping me get it all done.

But it does mean that I’m exhausted at the end of the day.

I will be back at it in March (I have my own office in my new house which I’m very excited about!).

Until then, if you are new to the site, please feel free to catch up on the blog and read My Story.

Look forward to re–engaging in the Spring!

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